Frustration

From past one month I was busy with a task given to me. First task assigned to me after coming to TATA. I was pretty excited not because it was my first task but because it was first time I ws doing something related to core metallurgy with energetic involvement. The topic was rolling in which I had earned, rather I was mercifully given C+ grade. But this time I had some different kind of enthusiasm in me. I was going to library in search of the topic, scanning research papers and what not.

This was how I was preparing. Then came the day of competition. And I tell you I fared really bad, a at least on the day on which competition ended. There was a clause of cost optimisation in it, and my cost was almost 3 times the others. I was upset not because others were ahead of me, I have learned to bear this pretty well during my college life. I was upset because I knew everything but again at d-day I didn’t deliver, again I insist that these were my thoughts on the day competition ended. After 2 days the results were declared and to my utter surprise I was third closest from tata steel with the world rank 30^th on the list, though my product was as such far more in cost. Actually others had committed a basic mistake, for which the instructions were already mentioned. So there samples were rejected. Now at least I was contented on one thing that I stuck to what I thought was right and it was right. But I was very frustrated indeed about not delivering the result which I believe was in my reach. I mulled over it for next one day that I could have done this and that. But I tell you this is the worst situation you are into because inside it bites that you could do it and outside you just cant explain anyone because everyone else just look at result.

I think since it was my first task in some core work so success must have eluded me. Also as usual there was some learning  too. Nice experience overall . But yes the untold frustration is probably the best and the worst thing you have.